Always Be My Baby: Reminiscing The Good Old Days. Haha. I don’t know what’s up with me lately, but I tend to connect music videos that I see with the past memories of my life. It’s as if frame by frame reminds me of nostalgic moments somehow. So, here’s another post not about the lyrics, but the video. (Though this song is a total classic and I love the lyrics and tune)

This Mariah piece I first heard in my early ages of kindergarten haha. My parents were fans of Mariah Carey’s songs in the 90s (out of all the types of music they like) and they passed it down to me since an early age, maybe before I could even learn subjects at school properly haha. She was the diva of the 1990’s. I remember when my dad bought Mariah’s Greatest Hits CD with Mariah on the cover showing her dazzling long legs in a skimpy dress, since then ya’ll, I have always wished to have long gangly legs just like hers (since I was in primary school) hahahaha. Well, I have a short torso and it does make my legs look longer than it seem for my height when I wear certain types of clothes, but still, Mariah’s height is far taller than mine. If I had daymn legs like that girrrl, I would def get them insured (HAHA SUPERMODEL STYLE). Kiddin. #KoqJadiNgomonginKaki ?? #Lanjuuut …

About the video clip. I love 90’s western music. It brings back memories and somehow 90’s music has a special touch to it. Whatever genre. It’s peculiarly just different to the 2000’s-ish music. Hard to explain, unfortunately.

Anyhow, in the 1990’s I had many wonderful childhood memories. This video clip clicked the hippocampus part of my brain. I remember going to yearly summer camps in my school. Usually the camps go on for a week or two at the outskirts of Melbourne, Australia (yap i grew up in Australia for 6 years). As seen in the video clip where the kids sneak out at night past their bedtime (well in the vid were 2 little puppy-love-kid couple, but in my case was different), I TOTALLY DID THAT ALSO WITH MY FRIENDS. Gyahaha! Without the teachers knowing, me and my friends (In a couple of camps we went to), we would sneak out past our bedtime and play around somewhere, play in the grass fields at night, and since the boys and girls dorms were separate, sometimes we sneak up outside of the boys dorms (specifically our guy friends of our “group”.. it’s a social-class thing that I had to experience, complicated to explain right now haha but you see em in western teen movies a lot) and they sneak out too to come out and play or vice versa and we would hang out for awhile outside. Usually to play games on the fields or just have fun and chill. Nyahaha. After a while, we would then go back to sleep. Though this didn’t happen every night. It wasn’t that late of hours. After all, we were just your average primary school kids. (But do not compare to primary school kids in Indonesia hahaha the social life is so different) Ahhh, childhood fun :) :)

In the summer camps I went to, we also got to light up a bonfire. Apart from that, what I could remember were the loads of activities we did such as hiking, board walking, archery, sailing, rafting, hut-making, horse-back riding across jungles and prairies, ropes course, outbound activities, canoeing, kayaking, visiting animal sanctuaries, treasure hunting, learn aboriginal culture, 3R Recycling factories, the list could go on and on. Every camp had its uniqueness. It shaped me towards becoming an outdoor-loving and outgoing person since a young age. Originally, when I was a little toddler, I was shy and timid hahaha. These activities taught me to enjoy exploring, learning by doing, and be brave at taking risks. Positive risks.

Oh one more thing about summer camps that is cliche in Australian schools, in the last night, everybody had to perform! Hahaha! So even before camping started, we had to get into our own chosen groups or at least pairs, and make an act which will be performed in front of a panel of judges (our teachers) and audience (the whole classes whom attended) at camp! I remember the past acts I did in different camps. I remember doing this lousy dance of Celine Dion’s My Heart Will Go On in 3rd Grade. I became the waves of the ocean. Yes, waves. A background. Juliana and Alexandra wanted to be “it” and me and Zoe were just too nice and passive and followed their lead haha. My friends Juliana and Alexandra who were a year above me (It was a grades 3 and 4 camp for this one) became the pretty girls with the silk night gowns (don’t ask why i dunno either) who got to lip-sync and dance serenely and me and Zoe were the waves, swaying our hands side-to-side. Zonk. Boh-riing. How lamer could a performer get? Haha! But since then, I had a big urge to be in the SPOTLIGHT! Muhahahahaa! In 4th Grade I remember I did a play called “The Green Finger”. It was a comedy of these two girls who got stuck in an abandoned factory at night and we trespassed into this sleeping bag monster bahaha. I recall doing this play with Steph, Courtney, Bec,… the rest I forgot, oops. We made everybody laugh from the corny and satire jokes we gave, so it was a success and I played one of the main roles, so it was an upgrade from just becoming waves in the background wkwkwk. I played this stupid girl who was a scaredy-cat and i wore this short skirt which fluttered everywhere as I pranced and there was a scene where I had to faint in the end and I (unfortunately) hit my head on the floor real hard (not on purpose but I was too into the acting haha!). But we got Best Act, so the bump was worth it haha. On 5th Grade, me and some of my girls did modern dancing. It was to an S Club 7 song! LOL! S Club 7 was a big hit back in those days. We danced to S Club Party. What was rocking was I taught one of my tomboy friends the caterpillar-move for her to rock it in the middle of the dance and I did the splits at the end!! (Yeahh I still can bust those moves ahhahaha). I remember all the dance practice we did at school in recess time by bringing my boom box or at some of our houses on the weekends. Me and Bec did most of the choreography making. We also got Best Act for this dance! *LikeABossYeahhh*.. Now, 6th Grade. I totally don’t remember what song I modern-danced to, but it was also a group dance just like what I did in 5th grade. I forgot haha. But what I remember was as usual I mainly choreographed it with the help of my bestie, Bec!! We love dancing. I also performed a couple of modern dance routines in my schools Fair Festival event back in those days.

Thank you Mariah Carey, since I saw this classic video clip of yours, it reminded me back in time of my fun childhood. Since I had such a fun childhood, now that I’m growing into an adult, it really affects on how I see and deliver myself in life. As my imperfect self continually learn to subconsciously become more mature and responsible in personality (this is important because as a growing human we will be facing complex things as we grow older and we cannot perceive our early phases of life as the same as what we go through in our later stages of life. It’s a completely different condition), I never forget my childhood roots. To see and enjoy even the smallest atom of happiness within this complex life. To see the brighter side of things within all hardship. Easier said than done, yes. But as long as we have that little faith to believe in this within our hearts, we all can learn in managing to endure. Corgito Ergo Sum  :D

Is there a time machine anywhere by the way? Jump me in :p

A Musical Philosophy: International Peace. Ain’t gonna comment on the lyrics, though it’s sweet. This post is about the music (All Hail to David Guetta’s sheer party-music-genius hahaha and Usher’s hot voice, yummy-yummy) and the video clip as seen above!!

It only took 1 play tap on my I-pod to make me fall in love with this song. When I saw the music video on You Tube, I was like: Whoah man, this is something!! The footage of various party locations in the world, everybody blending their senses into the music (hey, music IS a universal language like love, right?), and the concept how all continents shift and move into ONE in the end of the clip and form a Pangea Supercontinent (remember your history class, no?? Shame-shame if no) is just pure awesomeness. There’s even a frame of Indonesia in the video clip which made me shriek like a kid “OMG!! Haha!!” . Well, it gives me flashbacks of my past…

I really do feel that music is one of the things that unite man-kind all over the world. Look at all the existing collaboration songs on peace or humanity or just any kind of music. Though there are tons of genres out there, music unites us. Especially those songs which are easy listening and nice to bop your head and sway your body to. Songs which set your soul free. Like this one. Well at least in my opinion.

I’ve been to big parties in various parts of the world where the people who attend the parties are also from various parts of the world. These massive parties are usually a part of the international student events I go to. When I was in Taiwan for Harvard University’s event, Germany for ISWI, Australia and America.. I danced and sang next to an African, Asian, European, American, whatever who cares I didn’t even think of nationality when I was there. We were all mere human, we all have the same heartbeat, we danced in motion and let our spirits soar free. All the diversity felt so beautiful to me. The laughter, the carefree spirit…

I don’t need to drink alcohol to set my soul loose in a party, but imagine if i do and get a little tippity-tipsy-high it’ll be like what nyahahhaa (Have I mentioned I don’t drink? Well it’s kinda obvious I don’t). I sing my lungs out, hit those high pitch notes, and dissolve in motion within that sea of enriching international diversity.

God, I want to travel again and meet new people, make new friends. =) =) =)

Again, well done David Guetta for the beats and Usher for the vocals.

“If we are to teach real peace in this world, and if we are to carry on a real war against war, we shall have to begin with the children.” - Mahatma Gandhi

The People I will Give My All For: My Core Family. My mom, dad, and younger brother. They are the most precious people in my life so far. I have a beautiful family. The beauty of my family itself is shaped out of the sweetness and bitterness of our life experiences which made us the people we are today. One day in the still distant future I will also have my own. (though too early to think about this nowadays haha!) And by that time, they will also receive my all. :)

This Valedictorian title of Parahyangan Catholic University for my Bachelors Degree of a 3.72 GPA on the 24th of September, I give especially for you three. The hard work is to make you all proud. Love you Mom, Dad, and Iqbal.

Props for Meutia Ananda, my talented good friend and soon-to-be professional photographer for taking these wonderful shots. Greatest luck for your rising professional career, Te! Now working with one of the coolest photographers in Indonesia!! xo

PS: Click on the photos for a larger full-screen view. :)

This song Broken Vow really got my tears streaming two nights. But after I heard it over and over again, it gave me a sense of strength and courage. Thanks Josh Groban for writing this timeless piece and Lara Fabian for singing it angelically. And this is how this poetry came into formation. This is for you by me, A..

The Last Poetry.

A sickening sensation came creeping from within

After you declared a breaking news in that cold morning thin

A blank canvas on my face, don’t know how to express

When you said you’re now with someone else, it made my morning stress.

All this time we had no problem, everything was fine

We both made sweet hopes of promises, I was yours and you were mine

But like a flash of lightning thunder you transformed to someone unknown

Because a smile that you just knew, a bitter side of you was shown

I thought that you were different, gave my dear trust upon you

The care and everything we shared, you said that it was true

Though distance separates us and we live in different times

All along I played your game and felt those glistening chimes

You say that you felt guilty and you say I should remain a friend

Well you should be guilty, see I played along until this shattering end

I told you I am hurt, I told you I am heart-scarred.

All these scars from all of my past now it has turned hard

You asked me to slow my pace you asked me to wait for you

You said it a couple of days before you tied a knot with someone new

Why does the exterior matter most when I can provide you with my heart?

I longed for youthful happiness with you and start a brand new start…

You said I should soon find my smile, did you know how hurt I became?

I felt like I was used by you and now I’m chucked away in this game

I know I’m a strong woman, independent, and a brave-hearted one too

But that’s the point, I’m human and I have feelings that are true

Now it all has happened and I have to pass my fragile way through

I need some space and find more happiness and fall out of love from you

You say you know my worth but I don’t think you understand

I shall lift my spirits, I’ll soar high and meet my happy end.

Just remember once that someone loved you sincerely with all their heart.

But now that you’ve made a choice, I will pace through a brand new start.

I once said to you I love to learn from everything around

But this is a harsh way of learning from the rock-bottom ground

You taught me through this on many things in which what not to learn.

And I am off with my steers towards a brighter way to turn.

****

A person said: “the most amazing yet sacrificing experience in loving is not only feeling happiness but also being hurt. However, this will make you realize that you did love with all of your heart through a process, and that is a courageous thing to do. They’ll have a bigger loss because they lost someone who loved them truly”

“You mistreated me because you knew I cared about you too much and that I would always try to be there for you,”

“I don’t think you realize how much you mean to me, not the slightest clue,”

Wheels have turned, once again. Au revoir, mon cher de mon coeur. Je merite mieux. :’)